So I'm back in New York or, more accurately, have been back in New York for, Christ, almost a month now. It's good to be back and a little tough, too. I didn't accomplish anything near to what I had hoped, and I also accomplished way more than I thought I would. I'm totally fucked financially, but I'm going to make my CC bill this month and maybe even rent, and then it's all uphill from there. I'm working at Knitting Factory right now, which is good, a lot of work (I'm the manager on duty this Saturday for Sick Of It All and Bodycount, yikes) but I like just about everyone there and they seem to like me fine.
It's fucking great to be back with Allie. We had a tough little transition period when I got back-- apparently, she's not used to someone eating tons of garlic and rocking out raunchy farts in her cute little apartment-- but the worst argument we've had in a little while is which shade of peach to paint the office room.
Things are going okay musically, I guess, I've finished a couple of songs I've been struggling with, my voice is still coming along. I'm auditioning a couple of drummers this week, both of whom seem into it and definitely capable of the job, which is exciting. It is depressing to be back, though: thinking about all the fucking time and money I spent just to come back to the same place. But it's not the same place. I mean, geographically, sure, but it's changed from the place I was trying to get out of to the place I was trying to get to. A similar change has happened with my relationship with Allie. I've felt for a long time that I was going to spend a long time with her, but I'm really not scared of it anymore.
I feel the need for this entry to be comprehensive, you know, I drop little pearls of wisdom like "it was the best of times, it was the worst of times," or "what a long strange trip it's been," or "you could learn a lot from a drummy." But that shit is eluding me. I feel like I'm going to spend a long time trying to tell people what it was like. For now, I'll have to content myself with eating too much good food and playing Zelda in bed with my gorgeous girlfriend. Soon enough, I'll be back out on the road with Mike D., which promises to be nothing if not noteworthy.